Love is Safe

I didn’t realize how many times in my life I’ve been saved by the people around me. When my life seemed to be too hard to live with I realized I was never alone, that Zane or Lexus were always there to support me or be my guiding star. Until one day I was forced to be the one to save myself; until they were forced to live without me.
I’ve never been a person of great acting skills or someone who could hide their feelings. I’ve always worn my heart on my sleeve and my feelings on my face. How am I going to get him to feel that I trust him when it’s so clear that I don’t? When every fiber of my being is telling me to fight for my life; to stand my ground.
Am I going to be doomed to live a life that is once again being forced upon me? Do I have the strength within me to save myself from this prison he tells me is my new life? Why do I keep playing the victim? Will I seal my fate by wearing my heart on my sleeve and live a life that is a lie or will I figure out how to become someone I’m not and hide my feelings of hatred from the one person who seems destined to harm me