When I Was a Little Girl

My world as a child was unsafe, filled with one betrayal to another, worse than the one before. As I grew into an adult, fear and self-loathing became my only companions, causing me to leave a path of destruction, pain, and hurt, in the wake of my decent into hell. This is my story, the story of how innocence was turned into terror, and how terror then turned into complete and utter dysfunction. There are good people on this earth, and I started out being one of them, until my environment became to painful for me to exist in that goodness. I was born gifted with medium capabilites, clairvoyance, clair-audience, clair-sentience, empathic abilities, and when my world became unsafe, I used these abilities to survive my abuse. My downfall came in my refusal to heal from the abuse, preferring instead to run from my deepest fears. This is my story of hitting rock bottom, and how I created my own hell on earth. It is the first part of my life, Part I, of a two part series. The second part of my life, Part II of my story will soon be finished. Part II of my story will be about my choice to heal and change. It is how I learned to use my gifts to help myself first, and then others afterwards.