Shaping Diamonds

In my search for the truth I was awakened by images and dreams of future events and met my double in another world. If you can imagine the underlying beauty of an uncut and unpolished diamond, this slice of life will interest you. ἀδάμας – Adámas, from the ancient Greek, meaning “unbreakable”. Diamonds cut and polished have been used as decorative items since ancient times. Their characteristic “fire” is created by their hardness and high dispersion of light. I was always ready to protect myself from the onslaughts of the coming. Whilst sharpening my seven inch dagger for a trip, I crossed into an unknown dimension of the uncut and unpolished; I realized I lived in two parallel worlds; that inspired me to share my story. My life would have disappeared in a cloud of nothing had I not hung onto experience and been rescued by a life companion. My young days were sparked by adventure and imagination whilst I gazed over a horizon of limitless opportunities and truths. Rewards came in the form of unexplained dreams, images and real events that developed into a duel, testing the perimeters within which I could operate and live as a responsible adult, but also as an adventurer in a challenge to the world of the unknown and unspoken. I made peace with what had to be done, I could not deal with it later, and the opportunity may have never presented itself again. I relived my life from childhood, through my hitch-ride years as an adventurer accompanied by my seven inch dagger and a half a jack of brandy, later years serving in the military and facing the responsibilities of adult life. Within my self-taught coping mechanisms, I dealt with death and tests of my sanity. I could never be young again in the body, but I could separate my adventurous mind from it in an instant, at times hurting the body during long periods of separation and hypo mania. My mind’s walkabouts in the world of the unknown nearly always handed me what I looked for. I measured the rewards accordingly to be left on a road one day not prepared for or traveled before. Strong-backed by experience and a positive attitude kept me from falling over backwards as life’s punches were thrown at me. I encountered characters shaped by the challenging and changing effects on modern people’s thoughts. Encapsulated inside their own worlds, the earthly captains kept law and order whilst protecting economies and political systems in the name of modern civilization. The name of the game was food, comfort and security; greed and power or war for others, including feathering nests jumping from country to country once the rules were not according to their game plan, comforted by set rules. Emotions were pushed aside for the cause of business rule. The non-encapsulated world I lived in brought me to the threshold of what the captains of society saw as a threat, which comfortably over-looked the past and the goal of real life, ignoring the truth as a guide. To add to my confusion, images of super cars, latest technology developments and entertainment were splashed all over the public space - advertising boards as symbols of how far in time we got; the opposite of what I thought the spiritual world. Nothing lasted for too long, changes happened rapidly in the modern times I lived in. I was confronted as the years passed by and had to change my traveling companion, my dagger, for modern medicine to protect me, so I thought. Spiritual believes and values were challenged in an effort to follow and satisfy the instincts for the eternal survival of me as a human being, drawn to understand the responsibility, the pleasures and the reality of being in-between birth and rebirth. My pen became my sword.