| Author: | Joseph Fay | ISBN: | 9781681979281 |
| Publisher: | Christian Faith Publishing | Publication: | September 7, 2016 |
| Imprint: | Language: | English |
| Author: | Joseph Fay |
| ISBN: | 9781681979281 |
| Publisher: | Christian Faith Publishing |
| Publication: | September 7, 2016 |
| Imprint: | |
| Language: | English |
It’s the middle of summer in late July of 2003. I can see myself laying on the floor in our master bedroom. I’m curled up in a fetal position. I’ve been there for quite a while, right where I collapsed in tears. Before this, I wasn’t one to cry much. And if I did, I’d never be willing to admit it. “Come on, man. Real men don’t cry.” And yet here I am rolled up on the floor, sobbing uncontrollably. I’m crying so hard that I can’t catch my breath. My stomach hurts, and I don’t have the strength to get up. I remember thinking that this is the day that I’m going to die. I’ve already made my decision. I don’t know how I’m going to do it, or where I’m going to do it, but as soon as I can get up off the floor, I’m going to take my life. All hope is gone. I’m giving up. I can’t go through this.
Looking back now, it’s hard to believe it was me on that floor, and a lot has changed since that day. I believe that there comes a time in everyone’s life that we find ourselves in a situation that only God can truly help us. This was that time for me. I was on my way to prison, but what felt like the end was actually just the beginning. I sincerely pray that regardless of your circumstances, God will use my testimony to encourage you and give you hope because we all need hope, and everyone needs Jesus.
It’s the middle of summer in late July of 2003. I can see myself laying on the floor in our master bedroom. I’m curled up in a fetal position. I’ve been there for quite a while, right where I collapsed in tears. Before this, I wasn’t one to cry much. And if I did, I’d never be willing to admit it. “Come on, man. Real men don’t cry.” And yet here I am rolled up on the floor, sobbing uncontrollably. I’m crying so hard that I can’t catch my breath. My stomach hurts, and I don’t have the strength to get up. I remember thinking that this is the day that I’m going to die. I’ve already made my decision. I don’t know how I’m going to do it, or where I’m going to do it, but as soon as I can get up off the floor, I’m going to take my life. All hope is gone. I’m giving up. I can’t go through this.
Looking back now, it’s hard to believe it was me on that floor, and a lot has changed since that day. I believe that there comes a time in everyone’s life that we find ourselves in a situation that only God can truly help us. This was that time for me. I was on my way to prison, but what felt like the end was actually just the beginning. I sincerely pray that regardless of your circumstances, God will use my testimony to encourage you and give you hope because we all need hope, and everyone needs Jesus.
